Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Beginning Of The Year II

Let me continue with the quick review of the great new year this far.

I got a new job a couple of weeks ago (no, Bruce, I didn't lose the one you were so surprised about, I got one in addition to that one). I'm not going to tell you about it much since it's not the topic of this blog. 'Tho I do love it.

One of the great things about the new job is that I get to work along-side William. He returned from his month-long vacation last week. He happened to come by my office just when I wasn't there so I didn't see him until past Wednesday.

The moment he walked in through the door I felt a great smile appearing on my face. He was so tanned and full of energy, as you would expect of someone who has spent a month under the sun. Very out of place among us winter whities, 'tho.

We chatted about what ever when I noticed we only had a few minutes until a meeting we were supposed to attend. He was sitting on a chair by the wall so I went there to give him a little nudge with my knee to get him up and moving.

Instead of standing up he put his hands around my thighs, pulled me closer and leaned his head against my stomach. 'Let's go,' I said adding a little pressure to his shoulder. As a response he pulled me even closer. 'Aww, you dear little thing,' I said while bowing in to hug him while fondling his hair.

'Just wonder what would happen if someone would've walked in just now,' he said when we finally got going. 'Yeah, it would be quite a circus. Oh the fun and joy!' I responded, laughing. 'Don't you know you have to lock doors in that kind of occasions,' he kept on. I promised to keep that in mind.

After the meeting he offered me a ride home, as always. I wasn't sure if it was going to be awkward or not since we hadn't seen for quite a long time. But luckily nope, no fallback what so ever. I gave him a kiss, he gave me hug and off I went. From now on we'll be seeing each other at least a couple of times a week. At work, of course.



Thursday, January 21, 2010

The Beginning Of The Year

A month has passed without any updates on this blog. There were many reasons for that but the main reason was probably the level of stress I was under. 2009 was one of the best and one of the worst years I've had. I was more than relieved when it was finally over.

2010 has begun just amazingly well and I will do my best to keep it on that track. Let me give you a quick review of my great new year this far.

About the cruise with John. It was last week. I was in a really bad mood for the first part of the evening. All I could think of was that I was stuck with him for the next couple of days. Behaving myself seemed the hardest task ever so I was rather ill-mannered towards him. I was snappy and grumpy and undoubtedly not the most charming companion

But as we were drinking cocktails and watching the midnight cabaret I eased up. We chatted about music and such and it was really normal since he didn't make any public displays of affection. I did sleep with him that night, 'tho. I knew how much he wanted it and well, I hadn't had any myself since the rabbit sex case which you might recall.

We spent the next day in the destination city, mostly shopping. Among other things I got the most perfect boots ever. They made me so happy I just couldn't be anything else but nice for the rest of the day. When we got to bed late in the night John took me in his arms.

'We won't be seeing each other that often anymore.. You won't be coming to my town anymore and I rarely happen to come to yours. When people don't see each other for a long time it's inevitable that their feelings are bound to fade. So this trip was kind of a parting gift to you.'

I didn't answer. I didn't want to lie about still having feelings towards him. I also didn't want him to see how happy I was to hear that from him. The reason I had been so wayward with John was because I felt pressured by him all the time. He didn't let me breathe. The moment he said what he had said I felt so relieved. I knew that he did it because he finally understood that he can't win me back after what he did last summer. I also knew he still loves me. I knew he was hurting but I also knew I would hurt him more by acting the way I had.

A day after going back home I got a text from him, saying he would still like to remain friends. I told him that first we should become friends and then we can remain that since we've never actually been friends. We were acquaintances and then lovers. 'Why not?' I thought to myself. Friends it is. There is no tension between us, I can act my friend-me way instead of the hellcat-me way.

This got long again. I'll tell you about the others in the next post.